I'm back ~ hahaha ... so long nv blog in ... still having flu ... ah ... its like forever . Yesterday my nose even bleed ... dunno why also ... just so sudden ... hahaZ ...

okie let see ... for the past few days i wasnt online . But i wrote q. alot on my sketchbk (finally completing my 1st book ! 6 mths a book ...q. okay ... ) ... realise i have a talent in writing(CHINESE) =P ... I had lotsa rest too ... slp early , wake up late ...

Wow ... after so many consequtive late nights , i've finally collapsed ! Yay ! Down with fever , sore throat , flur ....blar blar blar ... common illness ... but at least they ... forced me to sleep early yesterday night ... Really had a very early sleep ... Too bad i missed Ling Zhi's programme yesterday ... but i guess health is much more important ba ....

The best things in life are nearest: Breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes, flowers at your feet, duties at your hand, the path of right just before you. Then do not grasp at the stars, but do life's plain, common work as it comes, certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life.

KNOW MORE ABOUT ME ....

1. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
SRJC pe shorts (wah i rem typing this ans for alot of times ... )

2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Ming ming hen ai ni (jing ru and Pin Guan)

3. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
eh .... porriage

4. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Come on ... i'm not that kind of person...i find it dumb .

5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU
BE?
Orange ... firstly its my fav color , 2ndly , its a beautiful and cheerful color that pple seldom dislike .... and lastly .

6. Whats the dumbest thing you do when your
drunk?
Drunk is not in my dictionary ... so big le ... shld have responsibility to take care of urself ...

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
Hai okay ba ....

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
YR lor ...

9. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
Irritated ... i dunno y

10. FAVORITE DRINK?
Lemon tea , horlicks , 100+ , apple juices , milo,soya bean milk ... blah blah blah

11. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
I saw someone mentioning cranberry volka....oh my god ... thats the last thing i going to drink ... it taste like cough syrup !

12. FAVORITE SPORT?
ERm .... i dunno ... as long as not jogging ... the rest ...hmmmm i dun mind ...

13. HAIR COLOR?
Now shld be back to black le ....

14. EYE COLOR?
typical asian eye color ...

15. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yesh ... but erm i dun wear it to sch ....

16. SIBLINGS?
Wah a lot ah ... haha ... i got 1 sis , 2 bros ... then i still have my fishnatics jie-meis

17. FAVORITE MONTH?
Dec ... thats when all the presents come in ... and the cool weather ~

18. FAVORITE FOOD?
Eh... alot. ... dun give me GUA-s ... i warned u

19. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Hmmm... haha 'the kid' ... i just watch VCD de ... long ago schow ...just recall how the story is like ... haha

20. Favourite day of the year?
No fix day de lor ...

21. WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER?
I dun listen to HP ....

22. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Toy cars ...

23. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Both .... if only i have the luxury to enjoy those seasons ...

25. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate definitely

26. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
la la la .... wat is this qn

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
I dunno .... Good girls dun cry

28. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
Listen to Ling Zhi , chat over phone , play my lappy , listen to sammi cd , listen to 20,30,40 cd , listen to 'my birthday hits' cd ....

29. FAVORITE SMELLS?
As long as its not pungent ... as long as there is no GUA-s smell

30. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
At this moment .... Ling Zhi 's programme .... learn a lot ...

31. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
Sch ...NUS ... REality ... BLAH BLAH BLAH

32. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN?
ALL ....

33. FAVORITE CAR?
I like BMWs or volkswagen beetle ...

34. FAVORITE FLOWER?
I'm not into flowers ... waste of money ! -____- "' .... but it's nice to receive it as a small surprise tho

35. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
2.

36. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
I can if i learn ...

37. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
Friday

38. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
I cant rem .... not important i guess ... most prob with V. gang ...having steamboat at ivan's place with LunZ as special guest ... but the other special guest that i requested didnt turn up tho ... SUCH A BIG DISAPPOINTMENT ... I'll rem ...

39. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO DO ON YOUR NEXT
BIRTHDAY?
21st liaoz .. erm BIG B-DAY PARTY !

Hai yoz ... i think late nights has been killing me ... had been having late nights manz ... for dunno how many weeks le ....yesterday had a long chat with YR ... 4 hrs plus plus ba ... toking abt stupid stuffs ... horoscope ... guys .... names .... blar blar blar .... Discussing Ling Zhi's topic .... la la la ....

Ling Zhi's Programme last night :

Hmmmm .... ling zhi mentioned something q. interesting ... lets play a game ... now , take a piece of paper and a pen/pencil .... write down 10 names (ur closest pple... whoever. ... whoever sloce to u ) .... slowly , now cancel 2 of them (come on at this time it shld nt be diff) ... then u cancel 3 more .... leaving 5 ... Now this 5 are the most important pple of ur life ... now that i want u to cancel another 2 , leaving 3 ... are u able to do that ? NO ? but u have to ..... so now ... left with 3 .... u have a painful decision to make ... cancel ... and leave only 1 person .... SO ... i know its difficult ... SO , now who's the person ?

After u've made ur decision in choosing that person ... come and ask me for an answer ... i'll tell u the whole story ...

Thanks to Da jie ... haha i got to view the whole ming ming hen ai ni de MV . Very funny ... but I would say it didnt really catch my attention alot ba ... Except the very last part where Pin Guan cannot take it liaoz when Jing Ru splashes water at him ... haha Then i didnt expect Pin Guan to actually splash back at JING RU !!! haha then the next moment i expect Jing Ru to leave , but instead , she laid back on Pin Guan shoulders and looked blessed ...Oh ya another thing to comment ... Jing Ru de acting skils improved le ... but pin guan one ...erm still have room for improvements ba ~

I've recently learnt a theory of letting go .... and so ... i'm really learning to let go of alot of stuffs . Including all my friends , be it is someone who worth or dont worth me working hard for . People who dont appreciate my presence are making me v. tired . I'm sorry for those who worked hard to be my good friends. Its not ur fault ... I'm just not moving ...

REASONS WHY I LET GO: I hate to be rejected . I hate pple to avoid me when i'm trying my best to get close. I hate pple to say sweet things to me but in reality they dont mean it. I hate pple who treat my care and concern as something stupid(I REALLY HATE IT ... I"M CONCERN ABT U AND WHAT ARE U TREATING ME AS ? ).I hate pple who always tell me i'm busy , i'm busy as excuses when i know very clearly they are very free. I hate people who puts up a fake mask in front of me (come on we are friends... but ur actions showed me that u are not ).

MSG TO THESE PPLE (haha if after reading u feel that u are one ... then too bad) : All of u are failures . (at least to me) .all of u are nothing but plain actors and actresses . U're lost ? I'm lost too ... becos all of u are so scary .

MSG TO THOSE WHO ARE WORKING V HARD ON ME : Xin ku ni men le .... Actually i know de ... But i just dunno how to say thank you in front of u ... i cant do sweet talks ...

However , these few days has been listening to alot of theories ... perhaps i should make amendments ... i should say ... I've learn to let go of those who are not worth my effort .... and not all of u ... =P ....

Friendships ...

Wow ... I'm back to this topic again ... i've mentioned this not long ago baZ... just few weeks/mths back ... But today i start to dig up this topic not becos i'm having any major problems with my friends(maybe there is some minor ones tho) ... its becos last night i hear Ling Zhi's programme ... and i find it v. v. v true de lorZ

I understand that normally pple who are the closest to u , will normally be the ones that are always angry and throwing temper at you . I understand this becos i always tot that becos of 'higher expectations' from each other ...' I expect you to know ' hmmmmm ... but then last night Ling Zhi mentioned that when someone quarrel with another one , it actually shows that they are willing to give each other a chance to know each other better . Thats y pple always say small quarrels can strengthen relationship , cos it make us understand and know more about each other .

However , not everytime quarrels have good ending. Sometimes it might get a bit of tiring. So maybe they'll simply say . 'Hao le bie shuo le '-'Lets not talk abt it' ...This is q . unhealthy . Cos that very person is hurting the other party . Cos they're denying him/her a chance . haha ... it might even end up souring the relationship de baZ

Ling Zhi really talk alot yesterday night abt that whole friendship thingy (Those i've mention is just a short short beginning...hahaha)...initially i wanted to type out everything de but its just so difficult to 'vomit' everything out on my blog again ... But after digesting it , i've gain alot . My suggestion is , go listen to Ling Zhi's shuo shuo er yi everynight ... She touches on different topic different day ... Its str after ying yue ri ji .... Ying yue ri ji starts at 11 pm ... Do listen to some ying yue ri ji too ... some q. touching ... altho some q. ben and lame ... =P well , there are alot of life experiences ard us baZ ... be it lame , stupid or meaningful ....

Yesterday met up with my Jie Meis ... hahaZ that XY(Xiao mei) ... everytime i see her is still the same ... likes to laugh alot ... and .... ren ru qi ming ... i've given her a correct nick ... Ben lian ... she is really one ... clumsy clumsy de ... always spill stuffs onto herself de ... MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH ...She likes to MUNCH

Okie ... now abt Da jie . Hmmm ... she's more hyper online ... =P Aiya! ITs a waste ! I WAITED so LONG then managed to see her for the first time ..... but forgot to hear her SING on the spot for me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... Haiya ... guess i just have to wait till our k ge session le hor ?

Oh ya and her bf ah ... really looks like mayday de AH XIN !!!!! GOt the face de shape ... got the similar features ... and HAIRSTYLE ... Wah then he is v. li hai ... can use laptop v smoothly without a mouse... haha i cant do that ... I'll be totally lost without a mouse .

Jing Ru Jia You ! ~


HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ... After the meeting up , i wanted to rush home to hear Ling Zhi .BUT~ i ended up eating prata at jln kayu ... cos my family just abt to go for supper when i reach home ... so i followed ... HENG AH ... yesterday TORO is the special guest ... so her ying yue ri ji and shuo shuo er yi was push backward ... So when i just reach home ... i'm just in time to hear LING ZHI .......

I wanted so much to fall into sleep ... i was SO tired ... in the end ... i slept late again .... LING ZHI lor ... her programme ends at 2 am ... i slp at 3 plus ... cos after listening to her , always have alot to digest ... She made me understand alot of things ... not bad no bad ... She's really like a cup of coffee de lorZ ... will get addicted to the caffarine inside and make u awake the whole nightZ .... hahaZ

Ling Zhi ... YEh !

i have TLT , i have V. gang ... i have the Trios ... now ... i have <--F|shn@tiC--> !!!! YAY !

Wah ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Haha so long nv chat for so long and dont feel tired at all ... haha i think YOu are also addicted to me ? =P cos of ur sms (call me tml at 11am if u wan to chat ... GAN DONG ~) at least u dun find me disturbing u frm studying ... Wah feel bad liaoz ... u having exams yet i still come disturb u ... Hmmm ... come to think abt it , i always nv kao lu da what others are doing at the moment ... hmmm ... not as considerate as u ba ...

But i really want to say thank you ba ... There are always so much to learn from u . I've always enjoy having to share thoughts with u . you've always make me change my life theories ... Li hai Li hai .... but ya ...some of ur theories are really better than mine ... erm ... but i agree to wat u say ...alot of things are actually 'chicken and egg' ... will nv get the ans which come first ... Tho u are 6 mths younger than me ... but u are really much more mature than i am . U do much more thinking than i do. I'm a empty nutshell ... live one day by one day ... couldnt care more ... perhaps becos of that , many pple are disappointed with me , angry with me baZ

Guess our topic yesterday was all abt TRUST eh ? hmmm ... didnt know how we drag until so far de ... initially use hp to call u is becos i want to restrict myself frm toking to u for too long ... but in the end we still swtich to home phone and chat for 5 hrs plus plus ... IMPRESSED ... We started of with : ' hey my fav song on 93.3 ....' and it starts our whole conversation . WE're always good at diverting . I didnt tell u directly ba ... i really cannot say it out verbally . But i always enjoy having conversations and sharing thoughts with u . To me , u're not quiet ... U're approachable

After ytd de long talk ... i really really feel that i'm too open until pple can read me like a book ... can be good and bad ... pple can backstab me easily ... =P will try to be more careful now ...

Erm ... actually there is a something i wanted to tell u long ago le ... but i always cannot say it out verbally ... Erm i'm really sorry for wat have happen last time in France and Germany . I know its a big impact for the rest of ur life .but i guess its also a test to our friendship ba ~ luckily that time we still got back together ... or else i would have let go of yet another good friend le . You know every time when u tok abt that trip , actually i also didnt enjoy much ... Cos i hated myself to be such a person in the past . i guess u must have felt very helpless then . tho i nv tell u before ... but then i can tell u i understand ... its the same applying to me when i was in sec 3 ... i lost all my friends then too ~ and kinda backstab too ... thats also a big thing in my life too ... the only difference is ... That time , at my weakest moment . you are by my side ... but when you are at ur weakest moment ... i wasnt ard . I cannot promise u anything cos i dun believe in promise and i dun believe in forever . But i will try to treat u much better each day ... you'll always be someone i will pick up ur calls always ... 24 hrs ...

Every one grow up after each life stages . Actually my life wasnt any more smooth-er than urs ... just that i'm optimistic ...

Perhaps u 're right . I've been to heaven , so altho i'm in hell now , i can easily climb back to earth and strive for heaven again . For this , i'm willing to strive next sem again !!! i dun wish to be on earth anymore ... i've been on earth for 2 years le ... time for me to move vertival up and not horizontal ... You've make me grew up with just 1 night time ... thank you ...

And tho u say u're always on earth and nv reach the heaven , cos u dun have any peaks in life ... so now u see no diff between earth and hell ... I dun wish to see u staying on earth anymore . I want to move to heaven . I hope u can move up with me ... i hope i can be ur motivation as well as u are my motivation .

Jia you le ...

I really hope ur application to NUS is a success !

Missing u ~

Wah ... i'm really addicted to this !!!! stupid Adrian (the pri sch adrian) ... put all these on friendster ~!

10 Years Ago, I...(pri 4)
1. want to learn everything on earth ... v. hao xue
2. probably still v. innocent ba
3. according to SH , she said last time i'm v. good , always kena bullied by pple ... but now is the other way round !! haha
4. am thinking of 10 years later (wah ... time flies)

5 Years Ago, I...(sec 3)
1. am at my most rebellious stage ... skipping lessons (f&n)haha
2. v. good in maths ... i still rem how i drop frm A1 to E8 frm sec 3 - sec4
3. went to perth
4. befriended my sis
5. keeping long finger nails ... just becos i wanted to be caught

3 Years Ago, I...(J 1)
1. Reluctantly went into SRJC
2. worried abt studies ... i rem i cried after 1st econs test ... i scored badly ... cos i wasnt in 1st 3 mths ... heh ... but then come to think abt it ah ... actually i'm still better than alot of the pple =P Dunno y i cried also ... Stress?
3. v. serious in work baZ ... first time doing homework lehZ
4. Dun like 1A4 and all the teachers at first !
5. went to France and Germany with Mr. Tay

2 years ago, I...(J2)
1. My studies at peak ... i do well for econs and hist ..hmmm...if i'm more hardworking , i can do well for maths de lorZ ... regrets
2. Loved SRJC ... Love our class unity when it comes to studying ... ESP HIST ... we help each other ...haha and , we skipped p.e together ...
3. Went to Vietnam ~ WOW ...LOVED it Befriended May , yilinn....xinyi ...V.gang !!!!!! =P
4. worried for As ... worried for GP and maths ...
5. am the most fortunate person on earth ... i have everything then ... luck , brains , friends ...but i'm losing it gradually ...

A Year Ago, I...(Uni 1)
1. v. unsecured ... new environment
2. everything seems to change ... for the worse ... haha
3. stayed in Temasek Hall ... befriended Joanne our good neighbour ...
4. had an operation early Jan ... Spine surgery

So Far This Year, I...
1. am still lousy in Uni ...
2. losing steam
3. befriended q. alot of new friends ... good good ... and can click well ... example Xy , PP , Ym ... etc etc all v. good
4. moved back home ... not staying in hall le

Yesterday, I....
1. heard xiao ying's dedication ~
2. D\led jin qu jiang part 1 ...wah wat a big FILE
3. listen to ling zhi's programme as usual
4.

Today, I ....
1. added Guiwen to Msn ... shld have done it earlier
2. listen to ming ming hen ai ni(jing ru , pin guan duet) over and over again
3. have another sleepless night ... last night attempt to slp at 3 plus but toss and turn still awake

Tomorrow I will...
1. still be the same jin yu
2. still be blogging
3. still be listening to Ling Zhi
4. still be having sleepless night i guess.

Wow ... took this frm friendster ... i like this ... test which friends closer to me .(at the moment. ..haha cos it always changes)

the friend who lives nearest to you-
- Angie (eh but not really v. shou with her ... )

the friend you've known longest-
- HAHA .... Shu hua ... 12-13 years le ba

the friend who was your enemy before-
- I dun make enemies

the friend you usually tell your problems to
- Random ... see who i want to open to that time ... normally i dun ... i at most go into isolation

the friend you usually meet for meals
- meals ah ... v. tough leh ... V. gang ? haha every time we meet = eat

the friend you last met
- Ling , Chris

the friend you last talked to
- Online considered ? Ping ping ... she's always online when i'm online

the friend you last talked to on the phone
- Sis ... haha 2am this morning ... she called to say good night ... hahaZ

the friend you hugged
- Wow ... v long ago .. i dun go ard hug pple ... i think either is Xin yi or Yi linn

the friend you last went out with
- Ling and Chris lor

the friend you last cried with
- i dun rem the last time i cried ... only rem that i almost cried when yi linn receive her results that day

the friend you last said sorry to
- Ling ... i still rem ... cos i nv go to hear her comp.

the friend you are thinking of right now
- Xuelun ...

the friend you can't wait to see
- Ping ... i want to hear her SING

the friend whose presence you dearly miss
- Xuelun lor ... she's so far away frm us

Another 1 FIY ...hahahaha

: .:: p e o p l e a r o u n d m e ::.

Your mum is - someone who knows me best
Your dad is - someone who likes to disturb me
Your sister is � someone who i'll feel v. comfortable with (She'll be delighted if she see this sia ... you know who u are)
Your brother is � really someone great
Your crush is � [n.a]
Your grandma is � better dun mention abt her ... -__-
Your grandpa is � not ard anymore
Your teachers have - been my greatest saviour(s) in life (esp in SRJC)
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.:: s t u f f t h a t i h a v e ::.

Your school bag is � still the old one
Your pencil case is � free de lor
Your PC is - erm something that will accompany me when i'm bored
Your wallet is � always lacking of something ... haha ... lacking of cash ...
Your camera is � one of my BAO BEIS
Your mobile is � filled with Jing Rus all ard
Your books are � (textbks)Nicely placed .(Jing ru de)carefully placed.(others)under my bed
Your accessories are - HAHA i cant leave without Music ...so u know le right ?
Your sunglasses are - v.v.v.v.v.v.v old liaoz ... dunno how many years ago liaoz
Your towel is � i have 4 bathing towels and countless face towels
Your teddy is - stuffed in 2 cupboards ... lots of them
Your clock is - ticking away ... telling that i'm wasting my time
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.:: w h a t i m w e a r i n g n o w ::.

Your shirt is � normal at-home-wear t-shirt lor
Your shorts/trousers is - see ans above
Your shoes are - always lacking of a pair
Your underwear is - something everyone has to change everyday
Your jacket is - a need when i go lib to study
Your socks are - always changing
Your belt is - [n.a]
Your mind is - blank

Yesterday Ling Zhi's discussion was 'what are we addicted to' ...Initially i tot erm i'm not addicted to anything ... BUT ! Come to think abt it , i'm really addicted to alot of things ...I'm addicted to coming MSN to chat with PP and XY ... today PP not online ... find it kinda wierd wierd de ...addicted to Jing Ru (seriously poisoned by the FISH EFFECT) . I'm addicted to Ling Zhi and her programme...I'm addicted in doing those FIY thingy online (perhaps i'm too free and wans more pple to know more abt me? i dunno) .I'm addicted to yes93.3fm ... 1 day sure will tune in to radio de ... i'm addicted ...addicted ...addicted to alot alot of stuffs ....

Hmmm .... heard Xiao Ying's DEDICATION ..... SmileZ .... Must li ke come blogger to blog in ... erm ... i've always like to hear dedications on air de ... somemore this time round Ling Zhi pronounce my name correctly !!! Y is this so ? HAHA cos Xiao ying v. clever ... she can predict nobody knows how to pronounce my name ... so she spelt it as Jin3 Yu2 ... MSG TO XIAO YING : Wah ...relax ..eat some chocs ... jis you for ur A-maths ... hope the next time i see u , ur brain still intact and haven explode yet ... i try to help u deflat a bit next time ... haha
MSG to Ping Ping : Congrats !!! You got into the finals !!! Jing Ru emotional songs are still the best after all ~ U used zhuan quan quan right ? Next time try use hua yuan ? u say u wan unplug mah ... Hua yuan got bad ... i think .... OR ... can choose yi ye zhang da ... my all time fav ... Jia You le

HaiZ but sad wor~ wasnt able to hear my own dedication ... wasnt able to hear cowie's dedication .... Nvm i'm still happy ~ MSG to COWIE : Yupz ... ur exams going to be over soon ~ 24th right ? Waiting for u to finish then go out together ... Missing both u and Xuelun ... too bad xuelun is in Germany ... so far away from us ...

No body online now ... haha let me do this ... take this frm friendster ... frm the bulletin .... initially was done by ping ping ...


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1.Melting Lemon / Sourtea
2.Just
3.Jin Yu Lor , Jin and Ah yu (basically just play ard with my name larZ)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1.My confidence (but it seems that i'm losing it gradually)
2.My Cheerful-NESS (nothing seems to really affect me for too long)
3.My thoughtful-NESS (heh alot of pple told me that i'm thoughtful ... and i like this little good point of mine ~ )

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1.Not daring and not independent enough
2.Not able to face up to reality ba ... always choose to avoid until cannot liaoz then face the problem
3.My heck care attitude (this has cost me alot !!! i just cant be discipled enough to get myself to study)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1.Y is there nothing in this world that is forever
2.Y some pple are just so lucky and smooth in their lives , they can do wat they like/want
3.Y am i always the inferior one ... no matter wat it is , i'm always not among the tops

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1.Someone come further provoke me when i'm in bad mood
2.Promises ... I dont believe in this word .
3.Ifs .... Ifs dun exists ... but y do i always think of IFs then ?

THREE THINGS THAT YOU ARE AFRAID OF:
1.REality (i agree with PingPing)
2.Losing friendships ... (but over the years ... i've learnt when to let go afterall)
3.Technology (i'm afraid i'm a frog in the well ... this world is expanding too fast ! )

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY MUS HAVE:
1.Air con
2.Radio / cd player ... watever ... i need music
3.Of course JingRu!!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
1. -|
2. -|- Basically no favourites lar ... dun buy certain thing for its brand .
3. -|

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. Ming ming hen ai ni (JR and PG)
2. Yi Ye Zhang Da(JingRu)
3. haha still zhui kuai le na yi nian(JingRu)
Actually got too many to name (haha i agree i agree...)

THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1.Xiao ying and Ping ping haha ... u gals are always around ! =)
2.Ruiyi ... she is my sis mah
3.TLT ... recently ba ~

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO PRESENTLY:
1.I cant score ... my results suXs
2.I cant do what i want what i like , what i desire
3.I cant learn how to play piano ... too old liaoz

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1.Go k ge
2.Play badminton / Cycling
3.Having bbqs~ haha or mass gatherings

THREE THINGS YOU CAN�T WAIT TO:
1.Do something abt my results
2.See PingPing and XiaoYing to K ge and celebrate
Xy b DAY!! wahahahaha Yep ... i also looking forward ~
3.Try to call in 93.3fm

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1.When i was young ... i have a dream of being a nurse ... but when i grow up , i came to realise it is just not my type
2.Then i have interest in interior designing ... but i didnt go for it ... so no chance
3.Then I rem one of my tuition teacher once told me that i shld be an accountant ... but i didnt afterall ... and now ... i hope to be my own BOSS ...

THREE COLORS YOU LIKE:
1.Orange ....definitely ...yellow also nice =P
2.Maroon , red , brown .... nice and mysterious color ... i like
3.Eh ..... let me look ard .... erm dun mind blue .

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1.Any third world countries
2.US & Canada (i really hope to go there)
3.Taiwan !!!!

THREE THINGS YOU JUST DID TODAY:
1.Check results ... suxS
2.lili lala online
3.chat with Ry

Q. expected i need to retake EA .

Well ... results no good again . Worse than last sem

Nothing much to comment .
I'm used to it .

I guess I'm the only undergrad who is struggling like mad de bahZ

And so ... wats the time now ? 3.30 am
And ya ... wat am i doing then ? Staring into my com ...yet again
And then ... Am i tired or not? Yes i'm !!! Definitely !
And erm ... wats the weather like ? Well ... considered hot tho its night time already ..
And hmmm... where am I now ? In my bro's room . doors shut. W/O air-con
And ... Dont I feel hot ? Yes i guess . can feel the heat in me ..n i'm suffocating.
And why ... why am I still awake , doing nothing condusive , and wats more , torturing myself with this kind of heat ?
And why ... Why am I not missing my bed , my cool and air-con room and somemore my sweet dreams ?

Simple .
I've lost my sleep tonight .

I seemed to have alot in mind , yet nothing . Does anyone get what i'm trying to say ? Well ... i doubt .

It's a kind of Feeling .

Good Night .
Good Morning.
Whatever .
There is no difference anyway .

Different words might seem different to everyone at different occasions in a different way do u think so ?

Well ...
That night(Last fri) , i was listening to Ling Zhi's programme as usual ... She had been my 'coffee' ever since i start preparing for my NUS exams . She kept me awake every night then ... listen while studying . And slowly , i somehow began addicted to this cup of coffee. Thus i always have to 'drink' it when its 11pm sharp every night .I will try not to skip. At first it was ying yue ri ji that really draws my attention . Tho i'm more used to bukoh mary's progamme last time , but i realise i like ling zhi's programme much more . Ok thats only the background info larZ hahaha

So that night ... i just wanted to sms in erm not to dedicate songs , but just to acknowledge Ling Zhi of her efforts. This is how i phrase it . ' Night Hey Ling Zhi ! I'm addicted to ur programme. You've done a good job ! Continue to Jia You ! and happy working ! ' Yupz ... just a short sms and i send it over to 72346 . I didnt write down my name . I guess its not important for her to know who i'm . Hmmmm ... then str away after 1 song , i heard my SMS ... Wow ...thats fast. She picked it up specially . She said she was v. gan dong . I still rem wat she says . 'there's a sms that make me v. gan dong. "It is by 5893(haha the last 4 digits of my hp no.) .''" She said it was the word 'addicted' that make her v. gan dong . And she is q. high and excited the whole night. When i heard this ... i was like ... WOW ... Different words might seem different to everyone at different occasions in a different way I didnt really expect my short sms to have such an impact ... haha cos after she read out , she prompted the pple to sms in 'i'm addicted to ur programme' ... cos she wanted to judge how many pple out there are also feeling the same...ADDICTED... she gave a time limit of 3 mins. I guess ... tho to me its just my way of acknowledging her ... Tho i didnt expect such an impact . But i guess , to Ling Zhi this is really important .It is important to a DJ. Being able to satisfy her listeners and to get them hooked up wasnt an easy task . Its only now then i understand how powerful the 5 words' i'm addicted to ur programme' are . Tho Ling Zhi didnt managed to win any awards in the Golden mike awards . I'm sure there will still be many many many pple out there who will continue to support her de ! Jia You le !

Knowing that my short sms has turn into the motivation of Ling Zhi , and has made Ling Zhi happy .... i'm happy too ~ Its just so natural . Also becos of her words , i really v. happy that she appreciate my sms and ya make me excited too ~ =P I'm sure not everyone can FEEL it when she says she's v. GAN DONG ... Except the 2 of us ... i think. The rest might not feel so great afterall ... but to me , when she says she's Gan Dong , it makes a difference ba ... it really does ... Its just like how i've make a difference to her that night ba ... i guess.

5893 ... she might not forget this 4 digits ... or maybe she will ... i wouldnt know ... but i think ... erm i wont forget this sms and this day de ...

All the Best Ling Zhi ... If i have the capability , i'll also want to be a successful DJ =)

Different words might seem different to everyone at different occasions in a different way

Okay ... done this ...

Name Four Scents You Love :
1. Actually i'm kinda wierd ... i like the rain smell
2. I like the smell of petrol ... but too many also cannot take it ... hahaZ
3. Whatever perfumes/ blar blar blar i have at home
4. Anyone who has just finsih bathing ... i like that smell ... a very clean de smell

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1. Jing Ru
2. Jobs
3. Someone's b-day present
4. Miss Wu

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. Ice lemon tea
2. 100+
3. Milo
4. Juices

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It ?
I say it all the time ... HAHAz

Last Time You Cried ?
Cant rem ... long long ago ....

What's In Your CD Player ?
Jing Ru's sunrise album

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
Not wearing ... at home lehZ

What's Under Your Bed ?
Alot of books ... all my favourites ... Esp History stuffs ... hurhurhur

What Time Did You Wake Up Today ?
erm not v.early leh ... 10.15 am i think

Current Clothes ?
My usual SRJC p.e shorts and a v. torn t-shirt haha

Current Longing ?
Eh ... longing to see Jing Ru

Current Desktop Picture ?
A cOmpliation of Jing Ru pictures

Current Worry ?
Results lor wat else

Current Hate ?
Erm ... Faye ... i always dun like Faye ... yet keep on hearing her name

Favorite Physical Feature/s Of The Opposite Sx?
Overall ... must look neat

Last CD You Bought ?
93.3 ying yue ri ji 2

Favorite Place To Be ?
HOME !!!

Least Favorite Place ?
Ya SCH (refering to NUS only)

If you Could Play An Instrument ?
Yes ... more than 1 instru ....

Favorite Color(s) ?
Orange !!! Brown , maroon ... blar blar blar ... red , yellow ... i like ALL ...

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
ERm ... not sure myself

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
Haha

Favorite Season ?
eh ... autumn ... romantic

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could
Go Back And Talk To:
That someone ...

Favorite Day ?
Fri

Where Would You Like To Go ?
Back to Vietnam ? Or perhaps just any thrid world country ... better still if can go there go community service

How Many Kids Do You Want ?
1 . I dun encourage favouritism (i'm the middle child ... maybe have the middle child sydrome)... I know i'll ...so just stop at one ... then wont have that prob ...

Ok ... i'll re-do my blog soon ... HaiZ

K-Ge- Ing :

Erm okie ... yesterday went k - ge - ing with lynn, ling and sing ...as usual the 4 of us kekeke and we decided to go to our old hang out place , bukit pasoh to sing ... And each person only needs to pay $4.70 !!! Cheapest i ever get ... haha ... and we sang for 4 hrs ... not bad not bad ... haha yesterday all of us abit CRAZY le ... keep on 'Yao2 Gun3'-ing .... Erm and the pple at the holiday home are all changed liaoz...didnt see any familiar faces ard ... haha (dun have da pang liaoz) and ...haha maybe becos of the change in the pple serving us , the drinks are not as sweet as before (Heng ah ...) Last time their syrup like free one like that ... their drinks are real SWEET ... SWEET till buay tahan ...Yesterday that k ge session really worth it sia ... actually normally the drinks is selling at 6.50 de ... imagine ... we only pay 4.70 for the whole thing ...! Still think that it is so UNBELIEVABLE ... Dun mind going yet again soon ! hahaha so cheap ! cheaper than drinking coffee at the coffee bean ...

eh ... today is the golden melody awards leh ... too bad i dun have scv ch 49 . SADz ....

Song Dedication :

Wah so sad !!! and DISAPPOINTED ... haha i told the whole world that i've sent in a dedication to 93.3fm on the 6th may ... and WAH ... it was not read out !!!! Must be becos i'm suay ... so my letter shld be in the bin now ... wasted my time and effort ... BUT! haha i'm not going to give up !!!! Gonna write in again .... must choose an auspicious date to dedicate ... keke

Fly Away :

Hmmm hmmm ... Lunz has gone to Germany le ... wont be back by june 9th ... Guess i'm just going to miss her le ... And i'm so envious of Ling ...she's going taiwan on the 10 june !!! haiz haiZ

Activities :-Badminton this monday at 10 am
-Driving test on the 11th (tues)
-BBq ? 22nd?
-Practice singing with ling ...
-Watch Ling's finals on the 15th ? 16th ? (cant rem which day liaoz)
-Blar Blar Blar ....

Okie ... i guess the photos shld be back to normal liaoz .... heh ... okie stop blogging le ... my com is so laggy today ...

Jing Ru 's Break up with her bf Ah Guan:

梁靜茹與男友阿管兩地相戀終於生變，親熱的鏡頭已成記憶。 （本報資料照）
〔記者林佳宏╱台北報導〕金曲魔咒，未領先到！梁靜茹首度入圍金曲獎，事業得意卻愛情失意，她與交往四年多的男友阿管分隔兩地，這段遠距離的愛情沒電了，兩人已經悄悄分手！
　梁靜茹「戀愛的力量」精選輯大賣，歌唱事業推到最高峰，聲勢直逼「滾石一姐」寶座，不過，事業得意洋洋，感情卻像她唱的歌「FLY AWAY」。

　梁靜茹以「美麗人生」專輯首度入圍金曲獎，而男友阿管也是這張專輯的製作人，只是萬萬沒有想到，金曲獎公布前，兩人宣告分手，無法一起分享「美麗人生」。

　梁靜茹跟阿管都來自馬來西亞，梁靜茹隻身來台發展歌唱事業，阿管留在馬來西亞從事音樂工作，四年多來，兩人一直維持著遠距離的戀情，半年前終於轉為平淡。

　雖然對感情保持低調，但是，被問到感情的事，梁靜茹也不願說謊，這半年來，只要被問到阿管的事，梁靜茹都是輕描淡寫，經紀人謝佩伶也不覺有異。直到昨天唱片圈傳出梁靜茹跟阿管分手了，謝佩伶在進一步關心後，才感受到梁靜茹的難過，謝佩伶說：「這一次看來好像真的不太妙。」

　梁靜茹坦承，遠距離的確讓感情維持得很辛苦，再加上她去年工作愈見忙碌，除了繼續穩固台灣地區，又新開發了中國市場，以前常靠通電話連絡，也常相約見面，這一年來工作愈來愈忙，連回馬來西亞的時間都很少，這一點或多或少都會影響感情。

　對於感情一事，梁靜茹不願輕易說「分手」，她只坦承戀情由濃轉淡，梁靜茹說：「就是比較少連絡了！」

記者朱立群／報導

梁靜茹為了事業，和男友分手？「戀愛的力量」精選輯大賣，也憑「美麗人生」入圍金曲獎最佳女演唱人獎，梁靜茹的演藝事業正大鳴大放，感情卻受挫。昨日唱片圈傳出，她與男友的感情從熱戀期，轉為冷靜期，加上男方家很想小倆口結婚，使得這段情已轉淡，兩人協議分手。

梁靜茹和男友管啟源都是來自馬來西亞的音樂人，梁靜茹來台發展，阿管也因與國內音樂人合作來台，兩人在梁靜茹推出「勇氣」時合作，因而陷入熱戀。由於自覺是音樂人而非偶像，梁靜茹出道後也不避諱有男友，甚至兩人曾在梁靜茹的演唱會慶功上一同亮相令人稱羨。

兩人交往三年多，關係已如親人，但在男方家逼婚，女方還想在事業上衝刺，梁靜茹和男友出現意見相左。梁靜茹去年底推出「變愛的力量」專輯時還表示，兩人感情不錯，喜歡做義大利菜的她，也特愛做菜給男友吃，然而今年起，梁靜茹事業更為忙碌，「戀愛的力量」在全亞洲大賣一百萬張，最近常常兩岸飛來飛去，因此和男友相處的時間變少了，也使得三年多的感情，在沒有第三者的情況下，似乎暫時畫下句點。

【2004/05/05 民生報】

[Ling Zhi 's shuo shuo er yi ...]

Erm ... today her topic was on marriage ...(something for those singles to think through)

Many pple always have wish to get married ard 26 , 27 and 28 years old ...
hmmm ... actually ... i'm one of them ...
But during her programme , she mentioned something that i realise its really true ...
We cannot really choose when we wanted to get married ...
Becos ,
we cant get married for the sake of getting married ...

Late marriages are not shameful at all..
Not getting married is also nothing wrong either ...
But getting married to the wrong person is the worst mistake one can make ...

Due to pressures or any other factors ,
many tend to rush into marriage ...
Just grab whoever that is around them ...
While stocks last
But is that really a wise choice ?

Hmmm hmmm hmmm ... i dun really have an answer to that tho ... [paused , think ....CONFUSED]

2nd section : Choosing Partners ...

ermZ and ya , ling zhi also did mention this ...
Many pple have their ideals when they're looking for their partners ...
I want this ...this ...this ....this ...this ... and ya ...That too !
Hmmm but the problem is ...
If there is one day ,
when u happen to meet someone who can satisfy all ur 'qualities' ,
how would u feel ?
Do u think u feel that u are good enough to be able to make the both of u perfect pair ?
Good Question asked ...

U have ur set of ideals ...
U choose ur partner ...
But other people are also choosing u ...
Dun forget abt that point ... and so ...
Even if u've found someone that have met ur 'requirements'
but ... have u met their's ?
Dont u think its actually a torture ?

maybe wat ling zhi had shared with us is really true
thats probably the reason y i didnt really have a benchmark while looking for my Mr. Right ...

I dun mind if u are rich or poor
I dun mind if u are handsome or not
I dun mind if u are knowledgable or not ...
I dun mind how many bad habits u had ...

I dun mind I wont mind and I shouldnt mind ...isnt it ?

3rd Section : Being Single ...

So , ling zhi also mentioned ...
we shld enjoy ourselves while we are still single ...
live everyday to the fullest
then we can actually realise there are lots of advantages for being single ...
as long as we are happy ...

And lastly ...
Of course she didnt discourage marriage ...
she said ...
Singlehood is good ...
But marriage can be better ...
They have different kind of advantages and happiness in them ...


Dont force anything that is not yours ...
but also dun let anything of yours to slip away ...

I agree.

erm changed the' trapped' to 'desolate sense of loss' ... erm this pic is by Noah Grey .... liked this pic when i first saw it ... i named it desolate sense of loss .... i have the feeling when i look at this ...

One day , a teacher draws a small dot on a chalkboard ...
and asked the student ...
'Students , what did u see ?'
Everyone replied .... 'a dot'
Well , i agree ... If i were to answer this qn , i will also say ' a dot !'
But ! ... erm y didnt anyone say :'I can see a chalkboard' ... which is much much bigger than the size of a dot ?

Well , in life ...
We can choose to see someone's good points or bad points ...
Normally , we can only see small little faults in them ...
and forgetting ... the LARGE patch of goodness in that person ...
And i think , this is really true ...

[Heard it during Ling Zhi's programme ... :'Shuo Shuo Er Yi']

And also erm ... today's at Ling Zhi Music diary ...

Erm she mentioned something like ...
we cant expect pple to treat us as well as we treat them ...
there isnt a balance all the time ...
Sometimes we really really treat someone v. well ...
or wanting to be closer to that person ...
That person might not even know of our intention ... or
sometimes , they might not even share the same thoughts as us
we might treat them as best friends...
but they only treat u as normal friends ....

I agree to it

Hmmmm ... maybe becos of that ...
I'm afraid of rejection ...
So , I'm alone ...
I dun have a best friend ...

And also ...
i also let my chances slip by ...
I do not know how to capture those who treated me well
Hence i've lost q. alot of potential best friends ...
Timing is just not right ...
maybe yes maybe no ...
It can be just an excuse ...
I dunno ...

No matter wat it is ...
Feelings are more important ba ...
Dun be good for the sake of being good ...
Thats y i always say i'm not a good friend...
Cos , ...Cos i dun hide my feelings ...
so whenever i'm good ...
I'm truthfully good ...
But! Thats really RARE ...

Shivers Shivers Shivers

Haha don't be mistaken ... there's really no winter in SG...
Assuming that there's no fans , aircons , freezer ...no nothing ...(ceteris paribus)
The weather is still as hot and humid as before ...
Nothing has changed...

Erm ErmZ neither am i down with flu nor fever ...
I've not contacted with any mosquitos ...SO,
I'm not down with Malaria either...

SO ... WHATS SO COLD ?
That will make one Shivers?
Oh well , at least it makes me shivers....
*teeth chattering away*

Well ... all have to be blamed on my jokes ...
Oh well ... not really jokes ...
just plain conversation with anyone ...

I realised ...
I'm getting lame ...
More and more serious everyday ...
I think ... i think is more serious than my 'WOLS'-ness and Fish effect ...
Its especially so at night ...
Perhaps i'm just sleepy that i couldnt care what i was toking abt or what i've just spoken ...
Or simply ...
my brain wasnt functioning well ...
with many haywires here and there ...
COME ON ...get someone to Repair them ~ ...

Luckily its at night ... cos i dont see any crows flying on top of me ...
Or else can u imagine the amt of pecks i'll have on my head ?
Or can u imagine the amt of crow's droppings will i have on me ?
Luckily ... luckily ...Cos they're all alseep ...
Ha ...

Its not Funny ...
Its not entertaining ...
Its just plain LAME ...
I admit ...

Whatever it is ...

U still laughed ...
Its not a lonely night afterall ...



After writing this entry ... i still find myself lame .... Do u ?

PAST , PRESENT , FUTURE ...

Well got this frm friendster as well ... nothing to do so do this lor

==FIRST==

First best friend: I don't have a BEST friend ... Good friends alot ... I'm still searching ...

First date:---Unknown---

First break-up: ---Unknown---

First self purchased album: erm shld be A*Mei's Cd ba

First pets: Fishes , Fishes and Still Fishes ...they're everywhere in my house ...

First piercing/tattoo: Nah ... I'm not a 'piercing' or a 'tattoo' person ...

First enemy: Erm actually i dont really have say an enermy ... i dun really hate someone till that extent

First play/musical/performance: Pri 3 ?


==CURRENT==

Current marital status: Single

Current thoughts:---Blank---

Current emotions: HOT !!!! WEATHER HOT ...

Current status online: ---AWAY---

Current wonder: When will i get to see Jing Ru again

Current instrument played: Currently ? haha recorder considered ? erm ... hope to get a harmonica and play on it

Current need: ---Blank----

==LAST==

Last cigarette: I dont like the smell ~

Last good cry: Good girls dont cry

Last movie seen: Good qn .... love actually ? .... wow ...so long ago le

Last beverage drank: eh .... cant remember ... most prob = plain water ?

Last food consumed: Wah ... ALOT leh ....

Last crush: Someone ... ( thats SO long AGO~)

Last phone call: Eh .... cant remember ... i dun like to pick up calls ... esp if i'm not in the mood to

Last tv show watched: Eh .... Huang Fei Hong ? haha while i'm having my dinner ...

Last time showered: cant rem ... But i'm abt to take my shower soon again ... WEATHER = HOT

Last shoes worn: Eh ... Slippers only leh

Last cd played: HAHHAHAHAHAHAA .... of course is Jing Ru de lor

Last item bought: ERm Erm ... seriously dun remember ... all i know is ... my notes all disappear suddenly without realising ...

Last annoyance: Erm ... by my handphone ... just has endless SMS-es ... which ... which i just dun feel like replying ...

Last disappointment: Erm ... ALOT ... till i dunno which is the most recent one ... Perhaps the inability to go TAIWAN after all the EXCITMENT ??? Actually tho i wasnt having high EXPECTATIONS ... But i was really really DISAPPOINTED .... I shld just really go get a Boyfriend and just go with him without worries ...

Last time wanting to die: erm everytime ...

Last shirt worn: My fav 'soiled' t-shirt that i always wear at home

Last website visited: My friendster to approve Xiao Ying's testy ....

Erm Ermz .... actually have something in mind to blog in de ... dunno y suddenly i feel BLANK '__' ...Strange eh ?Nvm Nvm then ... let me give an update on the golden mike awards ...

Erm actually i like Ling Zhi q alot ... maybe due to her Music Diary ... or maybe ...maybe her programme ' 2300 ji mo you ren pei ' has been accompanying me while i was preparing my exams ... so ... kinda addicted to tune in just to listen to her .... attempt to called in but always failed ... haiz haiz

Oh ya i went out of point liaoz .... yupz yupz ... back to golden mike awards ... Li yi won 3 awards ... so happy for her !!! Chong qing got 3 as well !!! erm and weibin got one ...some 'creative' award i think .... q. shock to hear that tho ... Ma li got one together with Chong qing ... the bronze awards for best partners ... erm erm erm erm erm .... that shld be abt all ba ... For Ling Zhi , tho she nv win anything , i think there are still many others out there who will keep on supporting her de !