Hey hey !!!

I'm in good mood nowadays !!! =) Although it's a busy week ... but i'm happy ... I dun know wats the reason of me being in good mood ... maybe this is just me ...

Hmm ... .this fri there's a outdoor concert at ngee ann city civics plaza there ... and fish leong will be coming too ... haiz too bad le , i got econs test on sat and i dun have the time to practice my econs beforehand .... too busy over projs so i would have to miss the concert ... unwillingly ... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Someone go leh , and take a few photos of fish and listen to her songs ..... if possible , get her autograph(athough i know its quite impossible) ....... go and support her leh ..............................Her jing xuan is going to be out soon ~ ahaha i'm going to buy it !

ahaha oh ya there's one thing ... shihling also got influenced by me ... now she also like fish's songs ... ahaha yea !

okie okie stop crapping le ..... i'm going to do my work !

The happy me =)

Study Study Study .... I must persuade myself to do that .... haiz .... have been so lazy ... esp nowadays .... izzit got to do with the weather ?

Hmmm .... today when i go to my SW tutorial then got a classmate mentioned that the time flies .... i realised it too ... WOW haha ... time just passes without me knowing .... ask me wat have i studied .... my answer is still , i dunno ...

Hmmmm .... got alot of catch up to do .....

Now scanning some photos(taken at pulau ubin) ... So can make use of some time to come blog in .... wasted man ... we shld have taken more photos that day if the film didnt get stuck inside the camera ...

Hmmm ... today went to the social visit at the Ramakrishna mission - Wings counselling centre there ... Almost late ... the bus journey(28) took me ard 1 hr 30 mins to get there ... The bus turn here turn there ... then after the service i went to have lunch with my mother ... haha then we go shopping till 4.30 then i go to her office and read comic ...wait for her to knock off ... ho ho ho wat a slack day ...

My throat is still quite painful ... but i dun have fever liaoz .... wah .... feeling so good !!! Having a fever is really very miserable (at least for me it is)... But i think there's alot for me to catch up (sch work) ... esp when i'm already lagging ... haha ... Jia you le ...

Yesterday , i think ... i saw mabel's sms ... abt going to watch forbidden city ... actually i wanted to go leh .... but its so funny ... to go with mabel and maybe her friends too .... Hmmm ... just wondering y pple ard me dun like musicals ?Hmmmm .... or maybe its expensive ? haha ...

Okie ... got to stop here for now .... got to go edit my photos ... make it look nicer .... =) ...hmmm .... i'm interested in photography ... maybe after graduating frm the uni ... i'll go take up lessons on photography .... wah besides that i would also like to learn alot of stuffs ... i will like to take up courses related to computer ,marketing,tennis,kayating,drawing(Envy those pple who can draw well and paint well) oh ya oh ya i also intend to buy a harmonica at home and try out myself ....and alot alot more !!!!haha ....so many things that i wanted to do ..... Hmmm ... consider it as a upgrading programme ba ! haha but most prob i'll just be saying .... and not putting words into action =P .... I cant be studying courses my whole life right ? haha i still have to work ... and spent time with family .... Always hope that i have enough time ... Aw ...

Today , i'm sitting in front of my lap top ... alone in such a big room ... i start to stare into space and wander off ... i started to think .

I realised a change in me ... i'm not sure if i've really change or izzit simply becos its only now then i've found my real self ...

i feel that i'm not the person that everyone is seeing - the usual cheerful , positive , sociable , supporive ,chatty ... Hey thats really not me .Maybe becos of the enviornment that we're living in ... i realised i've been deceiving myself for 19 years ... all along i was just trying hard to make pple think that i'm cheerful, positive and optimistic ... I'm just wearing a mask ... trying to hide my own self ..I always tell myself i shld look strong ...and i shld be look upon by someone elses and not being despised... oh man ... i'm so fake !

Maybe i'm still trying to hide myself again ... thats y i said i've changed ... but deep down .... i know i've been like this all along ... just that nobody knows ...

nobody know wat exactly i'm thinking ...wat i'm feeling ... nobody know when i'm unhappy ... nobody knowsthat i'm actually a weakling ... nobody know that actually i'm pessimistic and nobody know that i'm actually deprived of alot of things and nobody knows that i'm always crying alone in the middle of nights...izzit becos i hide it too well ? Or izzit i'm too complex to understand ? I dunno ... and dun wish to know ...

I dun even know who i am ... do u ? I dun know who i am ...Do u ?

I wish to lead a carefree life ... Free of everything ... where there's no need to hide

after watching turn left , turn right , i keep on thinking ... will there be someone out there whom i've by-passed countless times ... but we didnt even have a chance to know each other ? hmm ... and i kind of agree that ....according to the show , 'If one loves the other , and the happen to meet a lot of times (by chances) , its 'destiny' ... but if there isnt any chemistry between the two , no matter how many times they meet each other .... its not consider as 'destiny' ...

'Alone in a familiar city , each longing for that one magical encounter ....'

'Life is full of surprises ; might 2 parallel lines meet one day ?'

Yesterday i've enjoyed myself alot ...
1)i saw may ... someone whom i've missed quite badly ...
2)we had fish and co for dinner .... my all time fav ....
3)we took lots of photos
4)we went for a movie -turn left , turn right ...
5)we went for a cup of coffee at pacific coffee ... with nice nice crouch for us to lean on ...
6)we play bridge ... we shld have played more ....

I'm really happy ... at least i can throw all my probs away ...

Today i'm feeling quite moody .... cos tml i'll have to return sch ... with tons of homeworks , projects , assignments , lectures, tutorials and tests for me to face again ... I always hope tml will nv come ... let me stay in my own world ... and stay away frm reality ... forever

hm ... now in sch's com lab ... hopefully i'll get a laptop real soon ~
Really misses the kind of live we had in our Jc .... though its quite stressful but its fun ...
now the life in uni is sort of a bit dull for me ... and with tons and tons of readings for me to complete .... so tiring ... just like the waterfalls .... its non stop ...
I've been lagging in my readings for a week le and i dun have the determination to catch up .... thats bad ...
the worse thing is , we dun even have the 1 week break in sept cos we starts sch late ...
on the 30th sept , i'll be having my socio mid sem test ... hm ... i'm worried abt it actually .... cos practically i know nothing abt the module after 3 weeks of lecs ...
My old habit is coming back to me again ... - the skipping of lectures ... thats bad ... and i know that .... but i really cannot focus during lecs .... all i can think of is sleep sleep and still sleep ... sometimes i'm just asking myself , am i suffering from any sickness ? Hmm .... perhaps its just becos i slept late ....
Now i procceed to my life in TH(temasek hall) .... i dunno where had my 'onz' style gone too .... all i want to is slack , slack and yet more slcakings ... just dun have the energy to liven things up ...
the food ... ya the food .... really canoot stand it ... almost having the same old stuffs over and over again ... the hall canteen reminds me of a jail .... somehow i felt that staying in the hall doesnt help me in studying/revising ....but it adds on the my degree of stress .... somehow i feel like i'm STUCK in the sch .... perhaps its just the beginning ... but i doubt so ....
SUPPER ! ....usually i look forward to that .... so dun be surprise if u see me in a fatter version next time .... blame on the pratas ! haha
I guess I've grumbled alot ....ya alot .... can see that i'm not really enjoying myself eh ? perhaps i'm just not used to lead an independent life ...
hope that next time i'll have happy and also interesting things to blog in ....
till then ...